Tomorrow Was Worth Waiting For

I’ve become the number one expert of running from bullets and bombs

Spending a bullshit lifetime in just in case and insha’allah

Surviving became my middle name

Building an invisible armor of protection around myself

To protect my stupid, soft, and fragile heart beneath

As I duck to dodge another bullet

A dance of survival becoming so routine that I can do it without missing a beat

A civil war behind me wherever I go

Peace for me is just rest between battles

The only life that I have ever known is one of bullets and bombs

I never seen the sweet bells and balls of my mother’s time

Yet, my stupid, soft, fragile heart says don’t give up, keep going, believe

Tomorrow will be beautiful

Tomorrow will be the best day ever

Tomorrow will be worth waiting for

War is a natural state of behavior for me

I am used to seeing the mines beneath the ground and know just how to get around them

Learning how to be more agile, more flexible, more clever

Growing stronger and stronger until like a diamond that I will never break

Never could get rid of my stupid, soft, and fragile heart but it stays hidden under security alarms

Alarms that scream for me to run before it is too late

Urging me to find safe shelter before another bomb explodes in the horizon

Yet, my stupid, soft, fragile heart says don’t give up, keep going, believe

Tomorrow will be beautiful

Tomorrow will be the best day ever

Tomorrow will be worth waiting for

Inside of me the promise of a breaking dawn that will erase the darkness

It calls me like a seductive siren of the day that I no longer have to run to escape

I knew I should have gotten rid of my stupid, soft, and fragile heart

Thrown the whole damn thing behind instead it keeps singing that goddamn song of hope

It sings a song that tells me to not give up, to keep going, to believe

It says life is a journey and it is not over yet

Trials and fire are needed to know the knowledge to build a future brighter

Yet, my stupid, soft, fragile heart says don’t give up, keep going, believe

Tomorrow will be beautiful

Tomorrow will be the best day ever

Tomorrow will be worth waiting for

That one day I will see peace with my own eyes

One day I will take off my surrounding armor of protection

My honest, true, pure, and faithful heart will be free

The surrounding peace blesses the earth and I will no longer have to escape

The bombs and bullets will disappear like a nightmare I can’t remember

The fires will be replaced with rivers of pure light

I will fall at God’s mercy and cry out Alhamdulillah!

That tomorrow was worth waiting for

Sindiya Darman

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