Drain

never felt so spiritless, 

stuck in a bubble of my own conscious, 

knowing my mind is here to deceive,

need to cut it to be free  

drowning, need to breath, 

drowning in to deep 

dripping from my finger tips, 

I should of have let you save me, 

I know I wouldn't have been like this,

dripping onto the carpet,

looking at my reflection in the mirror

 I know I've let myself go to far,

screaming to my self

what I'm doing can put me straight to hell.

I hear ringing in my ears

nothing is clear

but I know what I fear

trapped within this torment,

my heart skips knowing I'm haunted  

I can't even save myself,

weak beneath my breathe,

should I dial nine,nine,nine

or let my self die?

Cold sweat and the nerves start to hit, 

I should have let you save me, 

just save me, like you promised before,

and heal my wounds,

as I know you would,

red all over my wrist,

I feel so misplaced and so used. 

I honestly don't know what to do,

wish I could be with you,

be with anyone really,

to feel wanted to feel like I'm worth something,

see I cant cry 

but my whole life has been a lie,

never felt so spiritless, 

stuck in a bubble of my own conscious. 

 Idil Mahamed 

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