Infinity

I wish

that i could

make you love me

the way Allah meant

for a man to love a woman.

And for us to be

the sworn zawaj

the pen had scribed

when we were

but a drop of nutfah.

I wish

that i could have you

touch me

the way that husbands touched wives

back then

gentle, true, assuring.

And not the way men in those movies

steal a woman's innocence-

and break her back

with the weight

of a fatherless sin.

No.

I pray

for a pious love

so pure

that it rings in the ears of

those who dwell in Jannah.

And so true-

that were we to enter it-

i might be

more desirable to you

than the Huural Ceyn.

I do not pray

for a happy ever after

but for an infinity

with you.

InshaAllah.

Farah Gabdon

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